october 27.. o gosh..it feels worse than the day before A's..its like a mix of bees and butterflies in my stomach. I could feel rushes of adrenalin, which is not really a good sign.

Like moo moo claims, i need that faith. Somehow, the utter confidence that was always present at crucial periods diminished to almost nothing left, not even a trickle of it. I've got a bad premonition about it...