I love to have random thoughts. R-A-N-D-O-M. Yup, that's the word. I like it. Yea, you know..sometimes, when you got nothing to do or when you get too stressed out, your mind starts drifting on random stuff..(:

To wait is a seemingly painless effort. I mean, yar..it is not like you get beaten up while waiting. Of course, it differs according to the situation that you're in- you wait for a taxi, wait for "monster house" to start showing on 31 Aug, for your friend in the toilet to apply her blusher, for your parents around the cashier in the supermarket to help carry groceries, for your cutie/hot-pie to take the initiative in telling you "ooh...you're the one", for the clock in your monotonous office to stop working, for education to complete, etc. The list goes on and on and on. However painless it may seem, deep down, certain waits can be rather hurtful to your emotional senses. We call those, the long waits, those that you spent probably one-quart of your life waiting to get it done. Well, probably that "moment" has not arrived and so you think it is inappropriate to take initiatives/action. You then start to give yourself excuses, resulting in time slipping by without being aware. And for some, remorse sets in. You then start blaming yourself for not doing it at that point of time or grabbing that bloody opportunity. You become frustrated and becoming frustrated or irritated is hurtful to your emotional being. Also, it could be because of the lack of opportunities or resources and so, you are left with no choice but to wait. This is probably even more painful, especially when your wants are so near yet so far. On the optimistic note, to wait could be a blessing in disguise. Well, patience is a virtue, isn't it? Better opportunities may come by, better luck may come by and if you believe in miracles, miracles can happen. Thus, the painful wait becomes worthwhile. In retrospect, grabbing whatever opportunities that is presented to you is important because certain things/feelings can be lost in the process. You wait in vain, time is lost, the day you start to regret arrives, you think you got jinx-ed and finally when you start sorting out your thoughts, you will realize that, wells...all is too late.

Oh, and I am suddenly in love with ultra black hair with blue tones which only appear at times.Woots..Haha...true blue Asian.


am I not supposed to wait?